I turned eighteen recently, and in a way that feels appropriately literary, I spent part of my birthday trying to convince my mum to read The Bell Jar. I first encountered it a few years ago and loved it in the way you love something that unsettles you – something that names a fear you didn\u2019t know you carried yet. As we talked about it, I mentioned how I\u2019d always wanted a tattoo of a fig to mark Plath\u2019s famous fig-tree analogy. My mum has always been sort of anti-tattoo, but after I explained why it mattered to me, she surprised me by offering to pay for it as an eighteenth-birthday gift.
That unexpected yes made me think more deeply about why this analogy has stayed with me, and why now, as I reread The Bell Jar, it feels even more relevant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Plath writes:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor.<\/strong>.. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose.. but choosing one would mean losing all the rest<\/strong>“<\/p>\n\n\n\n It\u2019s one of those passages that survives its own popularity. The metaphor is simple: every fig is a possible life, and if you hesitate too long, the figs shrivel. Opportunities rot. You starve. The truth is that the fig-tree analogy touches a very real anxiety for me: the dread that I won\u2019t get to be everything I want to be. At various points I have wanted to be a professional athlete, a psychologist, a lawyer, a politician, a writer, a poet, a wife, a botanist, an astrologer, a teacher, and about six other things depending on the day and the book I was reading. It\u2019s overwhelming to love so many corners of the world. It makes me genuinely sad that a single human life can\u2019t stretch wide enough to inhabit all the things that fascinate me. Yet the older I get- and yes, eighteen counts as \u201colder\u201d when you\u2019re in the middle of it – the more I think the metaphor isn\u2019t as stark as people make it. Yes, choices matter. But we ignore the rest of the sentence when we treat the fig tree as a threat instead of an illustration of fear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n There\u2019s an extended version of the proverb \u201cjack of all trades, master of none\u201d that people rarely quote: \u201cIf you want to be a grocer, or a general, or a politician, or a judge, you will invariably become it; that is your punishment. If you never know what you want to be, if you live what some might call the dynamic life but what I will call the artistic life, if each day you are unsure of who you are and what you know you will never become anything, and that is your reward.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Wilde suggests that fixed ambition traps a person in a single identity, turning achievement into a kind of punishment. By contrast, not knowing what you want to be keeps life fluid and expansive – an openness that becomes its own reward. \u201cRemember, even if the figs wither and die, life is cyclical in nature – they\u2019re bound to grow back. Opportunities will always arise, waiting to be plucked when you\u2019re ready.\u201d There is something incredibly human about that symbolism. Figs are ancient, soft, sweet, briefly perfect, and quick to bruise. Their fragility is a reminder that moments are temporary and precious. That the sweetness of a choice doesn\u2019t last forever. That, like Patroclus catching that fig, you sometimes have to reach out and take the thing being offered, even if you don\u2019t know where it leads.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Some scholars even argue that the fruit in the Book of Genesis – the infamous symbol of knowledge, disobedience, becoming – was more likely a fig than an apple. If that\u2019s true, figs have always been symbols of choice, transformation, and the risk of wanting more than you\u2019re permitted. In other words, very Plathian. Looking at Sylvia Plath’s Fig Tree: On Choice, Possibility, and Growing Into Who We Are I turned eighteen recently, and in a way that feels appropriately literary, I spent part of my birthday trying to convince my mum to read The Bell Jar. I first encountered it a few years ago and loved it in […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":550,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"saved_in_kubio":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[15,11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-549","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-literature","category-other"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/549","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=549"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/549\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":551,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/549\/revisions\/551"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/550"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=549"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=549"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wordswomenmyths.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=549"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Maybe it is a little dramatic, yes – but isn\u2019t turning eighteen dramatic by definition? Suddenly every choice feels definitive to me… every decision feels weighted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This is partly why I\u2019m studying English at university. It\u2019s not a \u201climiting\u201d subject – if anything, it opens more doors than it closes for me. I can imagine being a journalist, writing a book, lecturing, editing, teaching, maybe even working in communications or law later on. English doesn\u2019t force me to choose one self and abandon the others; it lets me keep the door slightly open on all the figs at once.
But then, when I return to Plath\u2019s passage, I sometimes feel as though I should pick one fig and commit to perfecting it. That indecision is dangerous, the metaphor seems to warn. Choose, or lose everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cJack of all trades, master of none, but oftentimes better than master of one.\u201d<\/strong>
It places variety as a strength, adaptability <\/em>rather than indecision. And it reminds me of something attributed to Oscar Wilde:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So maybe the figs don\u2019t represent different careers so much as different versions of fulfilment. Maybe choosing one doesn\u2019t mean the others cease to exist. Maybe we over-interpret Plath because the image is so vivid that we let it dictate the lesson for us.
A TikTok I saw recently summarised this beautifully:
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s not Plath\u2019s meaning necessarily, but it\u2019s a comforting corrective. It argues for growth rather than scarcity. A belief that life offers second chances, new branches, fresh seasons of fruit. A fig tree doesn\u2019t yield once. It blossoms again.
Figs appear in more of my favourite books than I realised. In The Song of Achilles, a novel that holds an almost sacred place in my reading life, figs signal tenderness and awakening. They appear in that early scene where Achilles tosses a fig to Patroclus with effortless confidence, a small, almost throwaway movement that becomes loaded with meaning.
\u201cI conjure the boy I knew. Achilles, grinning as the figs blur in his hands \u2026 \u2018Catch,\u2019 he says.\u201d<\/em>
In context, it\u2019s not really about food; it\u2019s about offering something of yourself, inviting someone into your orbit. The fig becomes a gesture of closeness and possibility, the beginning of a life that will branch in ways neither character can yet see.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So when I think about the tattoo my mum unexpectedly agreed to, I don\u2019t imagine it as a reminder of indecision. I imagine it as a commitment to growth. A reminder that wanting many things isn\u2019t a failing. That ambition can be spacious. That I can be more than one version of myself across the stretch of a lifetime.
And when I return to The Bell Jar, the fig tree feels less like a warning and more like an invitation to understand myself honestly. At eighteen, I stand in front of the same branching tree. But I no longer believe I have to pick one fig and mourn the rest.
Instead, I think: the tree will be here. The branches will keep growing. The fruit will come again. And I will choose – not once, but many times – whenever I am ready.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"